Thursday, December 27, 2007

Insecurity + Aggressiveness = A brand new headache.

Dear Diary,


Some people are purely amazing in the extent of their ability to be thick-skinned in a social setting. Even when not needed nor included in the conversation, they remain rooted to the spot, refusing to leave for fear of loss of contact and loneliness. Insecurity has never seen its limitless boundaries until it has been sought in this person. Insecurity would be surprised at its own parasitical powers.

Obnoxiousness in the face of severe insecurity is not surprising and they both actually make a great couple for the weakling to survive. A sad truth is that no amount of beauty or brains can fight nor overcome insecurity. The most beautiful or intelligent person will still never be at ease with himself or his surroundings; ever. Pathetic yes, but sad and pitiable too. A person who cannot be at ease with being alone from a crowd is a sad story. Such a deficit in confidence and calm is deplorable but unavoidable for many. The worse thing is that when it does occur or arrives at your office as the new temp, then it ends up right in your face.

Naturally, one will end up heavily annoyed by this desperate presence who is trying her stretched best to be nice and friendly to all permanent staff in order to seem the best fruit amongst all other temps. The main issue that would really irk the soul is when she begins to take over other people's jobs when it comes to taking credit. And her worry over another temp getting a promotion instead of herself, the newbie, is just ridiculous. Sleepless nights over a more experienced person's promotion? That is disturbing. The best part is that neither she nor her work scope is related to the proposed addition in the hierarchy at all.

A person suffering from a lack of confidence picks and chooses her targets to undo and outdo, even if they are not direct threats to her. She feels the danger swirling around her at all times. She feels ashamed and inadequate and this is translated into aggressive actions to overshadow a shining star or to work from underneath to pull the rug from beneath the target's feet.

Disgusting but such is a real-life ongoing example of the extent to which insecurity can deal a difficult set of cards.... To other people.


'Til next time...

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